If You Knew Me...

If you knew me... If you really knew what type of person I was and what's on my mind, would you still be my friend? Would you still hold my hand? Or would you turn your back on me and walk away? Would you even run away if you knew what kind of person I am?

My life is so full of drama. I take dramatic measures to get things or have things done. I am holding onto dear life and trying so hard to live life. But if you really knew me, would you still be my friend?

There are reasons that things happen. There are reasons behind my actions, whether simple or drastic. I have posted a private blog post titled "drastic measures" but I am not going to post it publicly. I think it is laying everything out there TOO much. I know I share a bit TMI sometimes but this post... it's like showing my heart and brain to the whole world so I dare not push the "publish" button.

But that made me think... If these people knew me... I mean, truly knew me, would they understand and still be my friend? Or would they talk shit about me and turn away? We all knew that I am naturally evil but... if they knew this part of me, I don't even think the devil would be my friend.