I don't know. These days, I've been feeling very sad deep down inside. But I haven't been paying attention to that because I've been busy with work and tired after work. Then there's the NBA Play-Offs. But in the morning, when I'm at work, I have the music on. I usually try to select the slow songs to listen to. Maybe it's because I just got an email recently from a guy I used to like a lot. I knew that "we" would never happen. His parents are rich people in Korea and so he was not allowed to fall in love. He did but he was hurt since they wouldn't approve of anybody except one girl they had in mind. Just found out that he's busy and doing well. He did mention that he did get married as soon as he got to Korea. He's never coming back. It seemed to me that he really liked me too. But he did say that he will not let himself fall in love again. It'll just hurt everyone. I can't help but feel sorry for him. What kind of world or century does he live in that he has to be in an
arranged marriage?! Surprisingly, I know a few people who are in an arranged marriage.
I know we're entitled to our own views and opinions about arranged marriages. Of course there are pros and cons. But same goes for marriages resulting from love. It's stated that the divorce rate for arranged marriages are lower. I think that's just because the people that can be forced into an arranged marriage can endure more and just live their life as it was given to them. But then there will be those few who don't want to disappoint their parents or family so they just live as if they are dead.
There are a lot of things going on my mind. I don't stop to think about it. I work all day and try to get myself so tired after work that I pass out. Then I get sick (physically). But right now, I think I am mentally ill. Things are so sad. When I look at my life and/or my past, it's sad. I keep holding onto dear hope but when will the day come?!
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