The title of this blog comes from a different blog of a different blogger. The post has nothing to do with the title. It doesn't relate to each other. But when I see these kinds of title, I start wondering... Do I ever matter to anyone? Does anyone think about me? Does anyone even miss me? What if I disappeared from the face of this earth... would you know?
The sad thing is... I think this person would be capable of looking straight into my eyes and tell me that nothing really matters anymore. I don't know this person anymore nor does this person know me. Forgive me, but I am feeling melancholy today. I've been feeling like this since yesterday. I'm in LA but it's sprinkling. Why?! It's summer and this is LA! I don't feel like working today. I just want to hang out at a coffeeshop and drink coffee while chatting with friends or enjoying a good book.
And I looked and looked at her and knew clearly as I know I am to die, that I loved her more than anything I had ever seen or imagined on earth, or hoped for anywhere else. (Lolita, Book 2, Ch. 29, P. 67)
This quote comes from the novel, Lolita. I don't know about this novel or the movie. But I've seen this quote on some random person's FB. It also stated somewhere about this Lolita being big with someone else's baby when this guy is saying or thinking this. Again, I don't know the story because I've never read the book or watched the movie. But if you look at the quote above alone, that's such a sweet thing! But then again, does this type of love exist in real life? If so, why can't I find it? I have loved but I don't think I've ever been really loved. I'm not trying to get people to pity me or anything. I just think that it's sad that I can love someone so much but I can never get that in return. Am I cursed or something by being born on Valentine's Day? *sigh* I should get back to work now.
I am drinking a double caffe mocha from Essence Coffee right now. On Saturday, I had a tall iced white mocha (extra shot, no whip) and a venti iced white mocha (extra shot, no whip) from Starbux. On Sunday, I had coffee from McD's. Yesterday, I had a venti iced white mocha (extra shot, no whip).
Anyway, how was everyone's weekend?
What did you do on the 4th of July?
Did you watch fireworks or did you buy it and DIY?
Did you have a BBQ party?
Now, back to work! I had Monday (yesterday) off so I feel like it's going to be a long day today but I know that this week will fly by quickly! Have a nice week, everyone!
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